Be.“You buzzed? Is everything alright?” the nurse asked.
“Yes,” I said, “I was just wondering why you haven’t brought my baby in yet.”
“Well, she’s sleeping. You don’t want me to wake her, do you? It’s 3am, why don’t you get some rest.”
This was my first baby and I was so excited to just hold her. I had heard how babies never slept through the night as newborns and so I was sure the nurse was holding out on me, keeping my baby away so I would have time to rest. And that would be a logical assumption considering I had just delivered my sweet baby less than 24 hours ago. I know, silly me, I should have cherished the rest. But I just wanted to be with my baby so much! I was the same way when my second child was born.
My love for these precious newborn babies knew no bounds. Even though they were completely helpless, ever so demanding and didn’t make any real contributions to the family, I still loved them so much. I simply loved them for “being”.
In a world that places so much value on “doing” it is so hard to appreciate the joy of “being” – like the joy of being uniquely created by God and the joy of being still in His presence.
Do you believe it is possible to be loved and valued by God even if you weren’t able to contribute one meaningful thing to this world?
Pause before you answer. Think about it for a minute. Really search your soul on this one.
The answer is absolutely yes! God is love. He created you just to love you. And He simply wants you to love Him. Of course, He has other things for you to do here, but that doesn’t make you any more lovable or valuable. Intellectually you may agree with me, you may say, “Yes, of course!” But is that how you feel in your heart? Or do you struggle, like I have, with being okay with just being?
That is one of the challenges to the practice of the spiritual discipline of stillness, silence and solitude. It feels so unproductive. Shouldn’t we be doing something? We should at least be praying or praising. Why? Why is it not okay to just be before God and let Him love us, to let Him speak to our souls in that stillness? God loves us in the same way that we love a newborn, not for the great thoughts they think, or what they can contribute or do, but for just being. Maybe that is why, in scripture, He is continually encouraging us to be like children.
I decided to use a scripture verse as a way to bring my mind back to a place of quiet during my time of stillness with the Lord. Psalm 46:10, Be still and know that I am God, seemed perfect to me.
It starts with be. It’s a good place to start. Just be.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. Psalm 139:13